❝ No matter how hard and difficult it is, I will always smile like an idiot ❞
Heartache :(
Friday, August 30, 2013 | 0 comments
I may be smiling right now but I’m trying to hold it in. I’m strongly clutching my two hands. You’re being deceived when I’m saying that I’m OK. I am shedding all my tears behind your back. Your small, trembling shoulders, your small lips. I’m sorry – you collapse before me. 
You swallow me up hotly and shed tears. I’m sorry – you hug me with all your strength. I let out a sigh past your shoulders, tears rise up past your shoulders. But only I know how I look. I want to live in your memory till the end, I want to smile in your memory. Like a fool, I just smile at you. 
The tears shed for me, put those tears away. He will be hurt, hurt because of me, so I need to hold it in. Why, why, why are you crying because of me? You should always brightly smile, why are you crying? Forget me, brush me off and leave in peace. 
Don’t you believe me? I don’t want to bring you down. My heart that beats from deep inside, the lingering attachment that’s deep inside. I just bury it as something only I know. I want to see only your smile till the end, I want to protect your smile. Like yesterday, just smile at me. 
In my heart, in my heart. I hide my feelings, I hide it for you so I need to hold myself back. Only you are my master, if you want, you can leave me. I will let you go, for you, I will let you go. 
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